I thought... 

I would still be lying on that couch thinking of you.

that I would walk past that lonely lamp post everyday.

I wouldn't be thinking of what-ifs.

You'd be there to catch me when I fall.

I could finally see the silver lining amongst the inky hue

I'd stop caring.

I thought I would really be fine.

I guess I didn't think it through...

Football My Foot! 10:05 PM

Most of my friends know me as the anti-football guy who watches Project Runway that knows nuts about the game. I've never liked it. I wasn't brought up watching it. And I'm that guy in class who skips P.E every week cos all they do is kick the blardy ball around the field.

But anyways, one day, while sitting in a cafe, my sister seemed interested in a game that was about to start on TV, which kinda surprised me cos my family doesn't talk about football...... AT ALL

So there's this weird thing where the members of both teams sing their respective national anthems before the game begins... And so she began commenting

J.Anne: Oooo so the white ones are New Zealand izit? Wooo then that means the blue ones are Slovakia?
Me: *pretends to listen*
J. Anne: OOOO... Eh, then what country are the yellow colour ones????

the yellow ones

See Nat???? It's not my fault!!! It's in my FREAKING genes! LOL

like everything else in my life...

screw it

When 7:38 PM

When you're sleeping with your eyes open,
at 5 in the morning,
there is no Chopin playing in the background.

When your back is against the wall,
breath constricted by emotions,
no tears come flowing.

When your gazes meet,
there is no spark, only dejection.

When you hug,
you wish it was mutual.

When your mind is numb with grief,
you heart is turbulent with affliction.

When you wish it lasted forever,
6 months,
slip through your fingers like sand

When you cry yourself to sleep,
you wake up the next day,
like nothing ever happened.

When you're not talking to each other,
you talk to yourself.

When you think they'd care,
They don't.


This ain't Hollywood.
This is fuckin' life